Impotencia

Me ahogo de rabia, de impotencia de no pocer correr a tu lado. Me torturan las horas y el tiempo, me confunde tu indiferencia. Me da miedo perderte, me desespera el no oírte. Odio el espacio y la incertidumbre. Me duelen los silencios y esa despedida que nos faltó hoy por la tarde. Por qué estás lejos, amor? Por qué?

No es sencillo dejar lo que uno desea por el simple hecho de que no conviene; no es sencillo entenderlo pero es de sabios hacerlo. Entre el sentimiento del corazón y nuestra racionalidad mental debe existir un profundo respeto. Las cosas del corazón no son siempre tributos de gloria. El pensamiento muchas veces cultiva con frialdad las decisiones, pero suele ser el mejor camino para no hacernos daño.No permitas que nuestras etrellas se apaguen por dificultades en nuestra misión. Pero espera! No busques estrellas que puedan iluminar tu camino de irrealidad. Cada uno lleva por dentro su propio cielo o su propio infierno, sin necesidad de morirse para ir allá. Nuestro corazón sabe lo bueno de lo malo, si algo no te hace sentir cómodo, apártalo d ti vida, puede ser que hoy inicie tu libertad.
Sólo espero que al igual que tu gran amigo Juan Salvador Gaviota llegues a traspasar tus propios límites; para que nada te impida expresarte tal cual sos: valiente, perseverante, luchadora, siempre en busca de algo más, de ese algo que te ayude a crecer, a mejorar; a volar hasta lo más alto y llegar a ese lugar que tanto anhelas. Nadie ha dicho que es fácil y precisamente ese es el mérito que tiene. El sacrificio y la constancia que exige es lo que al final te da la satisfacción de saber que si no conocieras la tormenta no podrías valorar la quietud del mar.
Recuerda que si quieres llegar a la cima debes de recorrer un largo camino. Me alegra de saber y SENTIR que estás buscando la mejor manera de perfeccionar tu vuelo.
Laura
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Empero, Benedetti

EMPERO
Cierro los ojos para disuadirme.Ahora no es, no puede ser la muerte.Está el escarabajo a tropezones,mi sed de ti, la baja tarde inmóvil.De veras está todo como antes:el cielo tan inerme,la misma soledad tan maciza,la luz que se devora y no comprende.Todo está como antesde tu rostro sin nubes,todo aguarda como antes la anunciadaestación en suspenso,pero también estaba entonces este pánicode no saber huir y no saberalejarme del odio.De veras todo estádestruido, indescifrable,como verdad caída inesperadamentedel cielo o del olvidoy si alguien, algo, me golpea los párpadoses una lenta gota empecinada.Ahora no es, no puede ser la muerte.Abro los ojos para convencerme.

God pours life into death and death into life without a drop being spilled. ~Author UnknownAll say
"How hard it is that we have to die" - a strange complaint to come from the mouths of people who have had to live. ~Mark Twain

I'm not afraid of death. It's the stake one puts up in order to play the game of life. ~Jean Giraudoux, Amphitryon, 1929

There is always death and taxes; however, death doesn't get worse every year. ~Author Unknown

All our knowledge merely helps us to die a more painful death than animals that know nothing. ~Maurice Maeterlinck

To himself everyone is immortal; he may know that he is going to die, but he can never know that he is dead. ~Samuel ButlerGaily I lived as ease and nature taught,And spent my little life without a thought,And am amazed that Death, that tyrant grim,Should think of me, who never thought of him.~René Francois Regnier

The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. ~Mark TwainWe cannot banish dangers, but we can banish fears. We must not demean life by standing in awe of death. ~David Sarnoff

Men fear Death, as children fear to go in the dark; and as that natural fear in children is increased with tales, so is the other. ~Francis Bacon, Essays

If you spend all your time worrying about dying, living isn't going to be much fun. ~From the television show Roseanne

Some people are so afraid to die that they never begin to live. ~Henry Van Dyke

He who doesn't fear death dies only once. ~Giovanni Falcone

People do not die for us immediately, but remain bathed in a sort of aura of life which bears no relation to true immortality but through which they continue to occupy our thoughts in the same way as when they were alive.

It is as though they were traveling abroad. ~Marcel Proust

Because I could not stop for Death,He kindly stopped for me.

The Carriage held but just ourselvesAnd Immortality~Emily Dickinson

A man does not die of love or his liver or even of old age; he dies of being a man. ~Percival Arland Ussher

The idea is to die young as late as possible. ~Ashley Montagu

'Tis very certain the desire of life prolongs it. ~Lord Byron

No one can confidently say that he will still be living tomorrow. ~Euripides

Boy, when you're dead, they really fix you up. I hope to hell when I do die somebody has sense enough to just dump me in the river or something. Anything except sticking me in a goddam cemetery. People coming and putting a bunch of flowers on your stomach on Sunday, and all that crap. Who wants flowers when you're dead? Nobody. ~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye, 1945

While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die. ~Leonardo Da Vinci

Life is better than death, I believe, if only because it is less boring, and because it has fresh peaches in it. ~Alice Walker

I shall not die of a cold. I shall die of having lived. ~Willa Cather

Death is a distant rumor to the young. ~Andrew A. RooneyA man's dying is more the survivors' affair than his own. ~Thomas Mann, The Magic Mountain

There are so many little dyings that it doesn't matter which of them is death. ~Kenneth Patchen

If man were immortal he could be perfectly sure of seeing the day when everything in which he had trusted should betray his trust, and, in short, of coming eventually to hopeless misery. He would break down, at last, as every good fortune, as every dynasty, as every civilization does. In place of this we have death. ~Charles Sanders Peirce

Death, the sable smoke where vanishes the flame. ~George Gordon, Lord Byron, Childe Harold's Pilgrimage

God himself took a day to rest in, and a good man's grave is his Sabbath. ~John Donne

The day which we fear as our last is but the birthday of eternity. ~Seneca

Years, following years, steal something every day;At last they steal us from ourselves away.~Horace

Our death is not an end if we can live on in our children and the younger generation. For they are us, our bodies are only wilted leaves on the tree of life. ~Albert Einstein

Death may be the greatest of all human blessings. ~SocratesApology, LCD-->

In any man who dies there dies with himhis first snow and kiss and fight....Not people die but worlds die in them.~Yevgeny Yevtushenko, "People"

Death never takes the wise man by surprise; He is always ready to go. ~Jean de La Fontaine

Death is caused by swallowing small amounts of saliva over a long period of time. ~Attributed to George Carlin

Healthy children will not fear life if their elders have integrity enough not to fear death. ~Erik H. Erikson

Millions long for immortality who do not know what to do with themselves on a rainy Sunday afternoon. ~Susan Ertz, Anger

in the SkyDeath is a delightful hiding place for weary men. ~Herodotus

We say that the hour of death cannot be forecast, but when we say this we imagine that hour as placed in an obscure and distant future. It never occurs to us that it has any connection with the day already begun or that death could arrive this same afternoon, this afternoon which is so certain and which has every hour filled in advance. ~Marcel Proust

Thou art not dead! Thou art the wholeOf life that quickens in the sod.~Charles Hanson Towne

Time rushes towards us with its hospital tray of infinitely varied narcotics, even while it is preparing us for its inevitably fatal operation. ~Tennessee Williams, "The Rose Tattoo"

We understand death for the first time when he puts his hand upon one whom we love. ~Madame de Stael
From my rotting body, flowers shall grow and I am in them and that is eternity. ~Edvard Munch
There's nothing certain in a man's life except this: That he must lose it. ~Aeschylus, Agamemnon

Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live. ~Norman Cousins

The death of someone we know always reminds us that we are still alive - perhaps for some purpose which we ought to re-examine. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

Death is a debt we all must pay. ~Euripides

They tell us that suicide is the greatest piece of cowardice... that suicide is wrong; when it is quite obvious that there is nothing in the world to which every man has a more unassailable title than to his own life and person. ~Arthur Schopenhauer

He who has gone, so we but cherish his memory, abides with us, more potent, nay, more present than the living man. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupery

People living deeply have no fear of death. ~Anaiïs Nin, Diary, 1967To die proudly when it is no longer possible to live proudly. Death of one's own free choice, death at the proper time, with a clear head and with joyfulness, consummated in the midst of children and witnesses: so that an actual leave-taking is possible while he who is leaving is still there. ~Friedrich Nietzsche, Expeditions of an Untimely Man

Death is for many of us the gate of hell; but we are inside on the way out, not outside on the way in. ~George Bernard Shaw

I knew a man who once said, "death smiles at us all; all a man can do is smile back." ~From the movie Gladiator

Tita...

TITA, es tanto el dolor que llevo por dentro al saber que ya no te puedo dar un beso, ni abrazar ni despeinar como lo hacía jugando para que me sonrieras. Es tanto lo que te extraño ya aquí conmigo, es tanto lo que quiero decirte. Quiero pedirte perdón por no haberte llamado o ido a ver más seguido. TE QUISE TANTO, traté de demostrártelo. Traté de que cada vez que te veía sintieras que te ADORABA con la mirada de una bebé que se sentía segura en tus brazos, la poesía de una niña de 3 años, las bromas y travesuras de una niña de 5, la sopas y las enfermedades que me cuidabas, las historias que me contabas, las rebeldías de la adolescencia que soportaste. Cada vez que te decía que te quería podías sentir que era cierto, yo sé que sí. Estaba con tantas cosas y tan triste que no te llamé en navidad. Perdón! Ay tita,...si yo hubiera sabido...Es que a veces somos tan tontos que pensamos que la vida es eterna y sólo basta un segundo para que se nos acabe. Vos no lo sabés pero así como de niña corría a tu cuarto, de adulta también oírte era como levantarme el espíritu. Hacías mejores los momentos más difíciles. Gracias por cuidarme, por chinearme y por regalarme todas esas virtudes tan lindas que se quedan aquí conmigo. Gracias a vos soy lo que soy... No me dejés de querer ahí arriba donde estés...Dame fuerza, amor y paz para entregar a los demás, poder llegar mejor a tu encuentro y que estés orgullosa de mí...

Discurso del funeral de mi abuelita 3 marzo, 2008

Todo esto pasó muy muy rápido pero yo sabía que quería dedicarle unas palabras a mi abuelita hoy. Podría decir cosas muy lindas de mi abuela, de Maruja, como la llamaba todo el mundo. Podría decir que esa educadora de corazón, esa amiga, madre y abuela nos cambió la vida de muchas formas. De verdad que con sus bromas y cuentos nos alegraba los días. Aún los más difíciles.Pero lo maravilloso de todo esto es que no hace falta que diga nada. No tengo que convencer a nadie porque bastaba pasar un ratito con ella para darse cuenta de quién era. Esa mujer indudablemente fuerte, positiva, coqueta y simple, de patas de pollo y pozol. Gracias Víctor Hugo, Arelis y Víctor Alfonso por cuidármela, darle una familia y chinéarla como nadie más hubiera podido hacerlo. Hoy estamos aquí recordando a mi TITA que también me cuidó de niña, adolescente y adulta. Es a esa mujer increíble a la que debo mucho de lo que soy. TITA, fuiste y sos esa sonrisa y esa historia que no se van, se quedan...para siempre!!!